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Yeah, I do.

2008-07-25T18:59:00.000-07:00

So, I'm really gonna try hard to post a long blog post that actually makes sense. I don't know what made me write this post. There's just so much to say that you can't... Well, anyways I'm reading a CSI fiction called Cupid's Arrow. I loooove the intro. You can read it in the quoteblock below. =D YOu don't actually need to. =P

If there was one thing in the world that everyone worried about, it would be love. Ah, yes, the dynamic feelings one person has for another is beautiful and yet disgusting at the same time. When one person feels feelings towards another, it scares them and yet, they can never get rid of those feelings. Very few people go their whole life without feeling something special to another. It's human nature, there is no stopping it. Where would the human race be without true love? But, of course, true love is hard to find. Some people go their whole lives without finding Mr. or Ms. Right. It's the sad truth. And then, there are those people who have found their true love, but are afraid of the other's feelings to them. Take two people at the Crime Lab in Las Vegas, for instance. One, Gil Grissom, has fallen for a student and co-worker of his. Her beautiful brown hair and lavishing brown eyes captivated him from the moment he set eyes upon her. The brunette beauty he sought was Sara Sidle. But, Grissom was afraid that Sara didn't have the same feelings for him, so he never gathered the courage to ask her out on a date. Within the same department was love-struck Warrick Brown. He also had fallen for a co-worker. Her strawberry-blonde hair glowed in the sun and he was lost in her deep blue eyes. Catherine Willows was this blonde beauty of Warrick's.

Yes, I find it very ala Shakespeare. Shakespeare's a pretty cool dude except for the fact that he wrote a book that I could not understand one bit. The Merchant of Venice. I didn't understand a damn thing until I bought the English version. I probably didn't understand that book 'cause of the excessive use of old English. But I get old English now, I swear. =P I understood A Midsummer's Nights Dream.

Moving on from that random topic about Shakespeare... I've been thinking a lot about the age gap between Sara and Grissom. The whole 'student-teacher' thing doesn't really bother me at all. I don't see any favoritism from Grissom to Sara in any case anyways. I actually think he favors Nick. But in a brother-brother way of course. And, my classmate's parents also had a huge age gap [14 years] and they're one of the most happiest couples ever. Unlike my parents, whos age gap is a year only...

EEEEEWWW at the family stuff. That was so... blehs. I will never, ever spill anything about my family life. Nobody needs to hear such horrendous happenings. I don't talk much about my family except for one post where things seem to be getting worse. Still the same. I won't mind it na lang. I've done my part and it's up to my mom and dad if they still want to continue the animosity they're having.. I'll try to release all of my anger in studying. At least something good will come out of it. Kinda like what Sara did. Sara Sidle.. ah what an interesting character. I love her. She's been through so much. "Sara comes from a traumatic background - after years of abuse, Sara's mother, Laura, killed her father. After her mother was committed, Sara entered foster care. While she can't remember the name of her first foster parent, she eventually came to refer to one of her foster mothers as a mom." [taken from a csibio page] I'm just happy Grissom's there and he understands her perfectly. Enough about GSR. =D

Sara's character kinda makes me feel comfortable in a sense. Weird but true. It's funny how people find comfort in something that isn't real. Oh well. =P

in my heart, in my head, it's so clear now.

2008-07-25T06:50:00.000-07:00

Hmmm. Another new blog. =P the other new one was very, very lovely but I fell sooo much in love with this new one. And it sort reflects on how I feel now. Like you really try to fly and when you finally get the courage to do so, you fall flat on your face. But hey. What comes up most come down and the thing that just fell down was probably my life... at the moment at least. but reading fluffy fan fiction helps a lot. I've been reading a minimum of 2 DaLicious, 2 SMacked, 1-4 GSR, and 1-2 YoBling fics. CSI makes me HAPPY. =D =D MY type of music right now is country. ~~I know, I wouldn't believe it either~~ I like Brad Paisley's She's Everything. Awesome song and it's just so... fluff-filled. You know who I am right? The sad, pessimistic, softball playing, boxing addict, CSI faaaan, fluff bunny. Yeah, I know. My personality's unique. Sighs. What else can I share to the world?? Softball? Well, softball's been okay to me. I only joined it 'cause my friends were going to join the team again and I said, what the heck? I'm actually glad they made me join the team 'cause softball seems to be like the only thing going well for me right now. Aside from CSI of course. =] =] I'll keep this post short and simple. CSI and Softball are the only things going for me. =)) lulz.

Stiff Kittens

2008-07-12T07:27:00.001-07:00

Stiff Kittens

New blog skin! I uber love this one! It's sooo pretty and dark. =D I also love the song. The song isn't exactly a new song but it still rocks. Am actually listening to it right now. My music box looks pretty jacked up so I'm seriously gonna find for new codes. Kinda busy right now so most likely gonna do it within a week. MOST LIKELY. No promises. As of now, the song playing is Pain by Jimmy Eat World. I love this song too! I remember saying that I'm gonna post what I wanted to happen sa WWE Draft but I just want errbody to know that Victoria belongs on RAW and Batista belongs on SD! Whoever disagrees with me can say what they want to. I lulz at people like that. Haha. So a lot of stuff happened since my last post. I got my Long Tests back. I got 44/50 in Compo! =D I need more help in Science and Algebra. But there's still hope for me though. :) I swear I'm gonna do it. :) I was so scared about Compo. I'm really proud of myself. haha. im not kapal though. lulz. I just wanna 'cherish the moment.

Even if I've been listening to a lot of things, I really like the song Almost Lover. It was on CSI:NY. I liked it then but I downloaded a pack of songs from an unknown site [thanks to whichever site that is by the way!!] and boom [hehe. Danny Messer's expression] it was there! Yaaay! =D =D What else is there to post? I've been digging old cartoons a lot lately. Stuff like Hey Arnold, Rugrats, Recess, Teamo Supreamo etc I like a lot more but Hey Arnold & Recess are my most favorite! :) I like Harold and his old dumb self. Also Spinelli in Recess. Watching those shows is kinda like a blast to my past...

My week went by pretty quickly. Friday was definitely the most memorable just because it happened yesterday and I can sorta still remember ish that happened. haha. Well the thing I really remember was during lunch period. Jillian was taking capsule medicine for her cough. She couldn't do it so she spat it out 3 times. With us saying eeew of course.

Pilar: Jill kasi. take the medicine na. Mahal na kaya gamot.
Jillian: I can't Pilar! I just can't! *dramatic voice na ewan*

It isn't really funny if you read it but if you were there you'd totally find it funny. What else do I remember... My friends might kill me if they find out what happened. In short, a lot of stuff happened but there's only a few stiff which I can actually say. Get it? Get it? =P I'm hungry. Probably gonna make me some Nissin Yakisoba. haha. Totally random but who ever said I wasn't random? Later taters! =D

ps, my title's called Stiff Kittens for no reaseon. [see random] It's a song by Blaqk Audio. :)

The Draft

2008-06-28T08:50:00.000-07:00

I HATE the results of the damn WWE draft. Only two divas got drafted and they're bano pa. Gosh! I shall post the results and I shall comment on what happened..

What Happened:
Rey Mysterio: SmackDown to: Raw- I don't want him there. probably cuz I'm so damn used to seeing him on SD!
Jeff Hardy: RAW to: SmackDown- I guess it's okay. As long as he doesn't 'communicate' with some of the h*es on SD..
CM Punk: ECW to: RAW- I dont give a crap. I don't really like him
Matt Hardy: SmackDown to: ECW- I want him with Jeff!!!
Jim Ross: RAW to SmackDown- Hell no! He's worked with RAW for too long, damn it!
Michael Cole: SmackDown to: RAW- I don't even know why he's still hired
Batista: SmackDown to: RAW- I want his feud with Edge to continue. Who's gonna make Edge shut up now? =\
Umaga: from RAW to: SmackDown- Who gives a flying flark?
Kane: from ECW to: RAW- Now that he's gone from ECW, ECW became lamer. :P
Mr. Kennedy: from RAW to: SmackDown- I still like him in any brand
Triple H: from RAW to: SmackDown- This is gonna be an interesting ride. =))

What Happened: [supplemental draft]
Mark Henry: from SmackDown to: ECW- Hate him in any brand he's in
Jamie Noble: from SmackDown to: Raw- He sucks anyways
Trevor Murdoch: from Raw to: SmackDown- It's okay
Big Daddy V: from ECW to: SmackDown- I forget this dude. :P
Deuce: from SmackDown to: RAW- after what he did to Cherry, I could care less
DH Smith: from RAW to: Smackdown- ???
Hornswoggle: from SmackDown to: ECW- that's kinda cool,eh?
Super Crazy: from RAW to: ECW- is he important?
Chuck Palumbo: from SmackDown to: RAW- lame
Brian Kendrick: from RAW to: SmackDown- it's fine with me
Matt Striker: from ECW to: RAW- Why are most people going to RAW?
Maria: from RAW to: SmackDown- hate this bimbo. hope Victoria breaks her face. =))
Shelton Benjamin: from ECW to: SmackDown- they should make him a head again. he's good
Finlay: from SmackDown to: ECW- 0f course he has to go there!@
Carlito: from RAW to: SmackDown- hate him!!
Layla: from ECW to: RAW- She's alright
Kofi Kingston: from ECW to: RAW- I still support him

In my opinion, Victoria should go to RAW to get that titlw back. She's long over-due for it. Batista should go back to SD! and continue the feud like I said and Maryse should just be fired PERIOD.

Next post: What SHOULD have happened.

Twist Of Fate

2008-06-23T05:48:00.000-07:00

I freakin' got the DVD of Jeff and Matt Hardy!! I freakin' love it. Jeff is so my second fave right now. lulz. I saw Chyna's book too. I love her! She should def. start wresling again. I also saw CSI:Miami dvds. which I had to obviously cop. =)) I love the Hardys. =D I pity Matt so much for what Lita did to him. I mean dude. She cheated on him with his close friend. =/ I still love Lita all the same. She totally kicks butt! Not much is new. Feeling better. Loved the fact that there wasn't any school today but the rain did scare me. Oh, and I added an imeem playlist to my blog. The old one didn't really suit me plus it's only one song. here's the track listing since it kinda got putol:

1. WWE Victoria Theme Song
2. White Boy- The Luchagors
3. That's How You Like It- Beyonce feat. Jay-Z
4. Bye Bye [remix]- Mariah Carey feat. Jay-Z
5. I Wanna Be Your Man- EndeveRafter
6. Best Thing- Usher feat. Jay-Z
7. Already Gone- The Luchagors
8. Break The Dawn- Michelle WIlliams
9. Superhuman- Chris Brown feat. Keri Hilson
10. Wordplay- Jason Mraz
11. I'm Yours- Jason Mraz
12. Teenage Love Affair- Alicia Keys
13. Hold You Down- Jennifer Lopez feat. Fat Joe
14. Better Together- Jack Johnson
15. Baby Baby Baby- EndeveRafter
16. Beautiful Nightmare- Beyonce
17. In Da Club- Beyonce

I don't have much to say. haha. Can't wait for CSI:NY Season 5. I heard Mac was gonna retire. so yeah. hopefully, that doesn't happen. It'll break my poor SMacked shipper heart if he does leave.

Emotional Wreck

2008-06-17T03:19:00.000-07:00

Sighs. I honestly am not okay. I think. Gosh. I need a life. I need... something other than 'this'. I don't exactly know what I need so that just makes things more complicated, eh? Recently, I haven't been hiding how I feel like before. Which is sad. I used to take pride in that. Knowing how to fake a convincing smile when deep down inside you're hurting like hell. People took notice in my sudden mood changes. I don't know na nga what to think eh. I think I'm slightly becoming..... 'emotionally unstable'. I a lot of things changed over the week I've been in school. I'm listening to Punk Rock songs more often than before. Don't get me wrong, Hip-Hop will always have my heart but I can relate to some of the angst-y stuff written in punk rock songs. So yeah. I'm an emotionally unbalanced mess. Things seem to be getting worse for my family, my grades are suddenly okay, and I finally found out who my real friends are in school. It was hard knowing who'll really be there for you but hey. at least you won't make the mistake of trusting the wrong people ever again right? Gosh! I hate myself right now. How could I ever trust people like that. I'm so stupid. Stupid Bella. Stupid Bella. Stupid Bella. I honestly feel like a bunch of crap now but hopefully, things will get better.

On a happier note, we picked our clubs today! *sarcastic yay* I picked softball as my first choice, Yearbook Comittee as my second choice and Culinary Club as my last choice. Notice how I only have one 'happy' thing to say? lulz. that's all for noww...

A Day In The Life <3

2008-06-11T03:12:00.000-07:00

OHMYGULAY! A month no post. uber sorry. I'm kinda okay now. Finished my Compo. Folder but I still need to read a few pages. Taking a break. Watching wrestling on YouTube. You know, same old ish. =] I just saw Batista's house on MTV Cribs [ty, YouTube!] It's kinda nice. He's such a nerd!! Collecting lunch boxes, Star Wars and other junk like that. =] I loved the 8-man tag team match. Even if his partners were bano, he won! WOOT!

Okay, so I just had my first day of school and it was STUH-RESSFUL! Composition class was scary! I don't even think I smiled during the whole entire period. The rest of the day was.... boring. I like 7-B better more than I-A but everything's cool. I think... Post more later.

And I changed my layout before pa but the images were jacked up but it's up and running right now. &. I added a new song. It's called Don't Mess With Me by The Hood$tars I think that's their name. I just really like it cause it's Victoria's theme song. lulz. AINT THE LADY TO MESS WITH.Gonna make a longer post tom. and I posted two videos down there. So yeah. I didn't post them nor do I claim to own them. that's all for now! later taters!

xxoo, Bee

Batista's MTV Cribs

Victoria's Car

DaLicious♥♥

2008-05-10T06:24:00.000-07:00

Yay! New blog post. =)) It's gonna be mostly about CSI:NY so if yur a hater of SMacked or DaLicious/M&Ms, better close my blog then. =)) I've heard of Dontana,M&Ms and other ones but DaLicious is my new favorite name for D/L. :P Re-cap on CSI:NY's latest episode, "Personal Foul". Not much SMacked moments but good D/L ish right there. Danny misses Lindsay [aww] but I'm glad she didn't give in to him right away. Yep, she's strong. =D More of the independent Lindsay, please. =)) She did say Danny was a tough man to love so duh. She loves him pa. woooot. Currently searching for D/L songs. Good thing there's a thread at tv.com I'm gonna download all. =)) All the D/L happiness should be spread everywhere. from my iPod to my wallpaper. :P from my avatar to my siggie. maybe even to the blinkie thinggos. =)) basta. D/L rocks. Well Obama's leading. yay. totally support him. CHANGE WE CAN BELIEVE IN. <33 I still think Hillary's gonna win tho. Gotta stay positive tho. Okay, so this blog post is ultimately short. I kinda did this draft yesterday pa but was too lazy to publish it. =P so now it's mother's day. yay or neigh? Not sure if I should be happy. Oh well. I gotta go check if ALJ is updated. it's been having so much drama lately. Well, its like when DaLicious goes up,Jayonce goes down. FanFic wise I mean. Nobody really knows whats gonig on with Jayonce. Except for the fact that they didn't say anything about their wedding. Haha. no denial yet. short post. this is it. :P

rant

2008-04-27T20:45:00.001-07:00

Zomg. Kayla just went online! that is so friggin awesome. I miss that girl to pieces. Even if its only been barely 2 days. Like we said, if we haven't chatted for at least one everyday, then something must be wrong with us. Haha. Remember yesterday when I said that I'd update everyday at 12 and if ever I'm bored I'll post something here... well yeah. I'm bored so here's my post. lulz. I know. pointless. I just started using Opera Web Browser. It's kinda okay. I'll be switiching back to Mozilla soon. When I feel like it that is. haha. I'm currently downloading the album Rebirth by Jennifer Lopez and it's a pretty good album. Her album, Brave was just okay. I guess you can say nothing special. haha. Aww damn. My internet got disconnected. Now, I'll need to restart my download again. DAMN IT! I used to curse a lot but I think it has toned down even just a little bit. haha. Today's Monday and you know what that means... Kick boxing. I hate doing it. I just friggin wanna do that spinny-kick thingy to my coach. Uggggh. I think he hates me cuz I ultimately suck well too bad for him he wont be able to do anything about it. :)) Since nobody actually reads my blog [which is kinda like a relief cuz I wouldn't have to worry about people e=jumping me plus I'm like Jayonce. I like ish private] I guess I can finally admit what my dad and mom told me. My dad told me that we might move to New Zeland in a couple of years. I couldn'y say no. I've always wanted to escape the Philippines. I hope they aren't delayed that much in music and all of the important stuff. lulz. Hmm what else is there to say I guess? Currently hearing: Confessions Part II by Usher. =)) It's old but this song is still pretty good. I like Love In This Club no matter how much people say its icky. It's on point. Def. gonna cop Usher's album. Btw, I've never seen a picture of his baby. Hopefully, it didn't get Usher's nose. No offense but its kinda... big. But I guess his muscles and body makes up for that? Okay now why da hell am I talking about Usher. I guess I'll rant about celebs now. :)) Just kidding. and I'm not in the mood. :P I wanna watch CSI:NY but I'm running out of episodes to watch. I miss Danny. haha. I wonder if Ricky will be in the next episode. She better not. I seriously wanna kill her. I totally forgot to mention. I only downloaded Rebirth cuz I saw Sheldon watching her music video, Get Right on Episode 2 of Season 2: Grand Murder at Central Station. Thats it. I guess I'll post more at 12 AM tonight. :))

♥♥Today

2008-04-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

I made a pact with myself that I shall update this once a day for the remaining days of my summer at 12 AM each day. So I can quickly recap my day. Haha. I guess I'll post random stuff too when I get bored. Which happens very often,mind you. =P I am now reading a Danny♥Lindsay fan fiction. I'm planning on reading a SMacked fanfic later on. YAY! haha. I miss my Roc Ridahs. None of them updated thier stories and it's annoying since there isn't much on JAYONCE now. Only that they filed their signed wedding license already. Oh, I almost forgot [yeah, Jaska. minus 10 stan points] they might have a baby! I highly doubt that though. I'll post that article at the bottom of this post.

My day... hmm how was my day? well, I read more than 5 D/L fics today and around 4 SMacked oneshots. I swear those couples make me wanna go aww. Danny can't even stop flirting with Lindsay infront of a dead body. Okay, eeeew. that is just straight up NASTY. haha. so tom. is my kick-boxing lesson. Ugh. I hate it there. Our coach smells so bad. It isn't even funny. Oh well. At least my cousin's there to cheer me up. Well, not really. Since she's way better than me. Haha. Well, CSI is cheering me up. Not only NY. Miami's cool too. CSI Las Vegas rocks! I have my own ships there. But for now, I'll be repping NY. Danny is just... too hot. =))

.forensics.are.love.

2008-04-27T03:07:00.000-07:00

I know I shouldn't be saying that but I am now CSI:NY obsessed. :D I mean seriously. It's so interesting plus Mr. Danny Messer is like HOTT. Who can blame Lindsay for falling in love with him? Aside from his attitude that reeks of old diapers and poop, that is. haha. Give him a break. :P He looks hot when he's mad. that's a plus right? :))

I kinda like the banner I made. :P Too bad Angell isn't there. I like Sid's picture the most. He's the dude with eyeglasses in the end [Near the orange-y part] Lindsay's picture is just weird. No shoes, eh? But look at the way she's staring at Danny. Goodness. His arms. :D Can't Mac and Flack stop wearing a tie?? Awww at Mac and Stella. It's like they're the only ones there. Same goes for Lindsay and Danny. But hey, I'm not complaining.

I know, it's all about CSI:NY but thats all thats happening right now. :)) and I kinda like it. :D

2007-12-07T01:52:00.000-08:00

oh my gosh. I so didn't like yesterday. It was so freakin' malas. We practiced for the Christmas caroling thingy. And of course, 7-B got pagalitan as always. Well it wasn't our fault naman na not much people in our class can sing diba?? Gosh. Does RH actually think everyone in Rosehill can belt a tune? Oh gosh. I so wanna smack Miss B. in her head. We were trying why the hell can't she see that??

Well that was yesterday and today is a different day. or at least I want it to be. haha. So I spent all night yesterday downloading Reasonable Doubt. It was Jay's first album and even my cousins in America said they couldn't find it anymore. But when I got to this freakin' computer just like an hour ago, it said there was an error in downloading. I was sooo pissed. Yeah I was. [past tense] But now, I'm feeling all better. I finally got to download Bee's performance at the AMAs. Yall know the Irreplaceable country version thing. I was watching the Get Me Bodied performance when I heard the ting sound saying it downloaded, I screamed and said, finally. Yes, I can proudly say Beyonce is my addiction. lol. well anyways, last week was sooo damn boring. Well except for Jay-Z and Tyra's birthday of course. Which would explain why I have Jay's pic at the top of this blog post. It's ugly but it was all I can give Hov, ayt? :P I'll get to working on Tyra's later. :) Even if it is kinda late already. I still remember the yummy cake I made Tyra and Jay. It was good as hell too. I still can't believe I actually did that. Make a cake to celebrate some celebrity's birthday. Well I did that for Bee too sooooo... :P and if it's just another excuse to eat delicious cake, then so be it. ;D I'd even celebrate Elvis' birthday if that's the case. :P If I even knew his birthday.

Well that was my week. Boring. Predictable. Lame. but this was like Jayonce heaven week for us stans so it aint that bad after all.

2007-12-03T04:02:00.000-08:00

Yeahhh! You see that? History in the making!! ha. You don't mess with the lovely and every so outstanding Jayonce!! Hellooooo... Beyonce? Number nine? back on the billboard charts when her album was like released last year pa? Woot. I wonder what made the sales go up... Hell, I'll snag another copy for the other car. Pero I think sobra na yun. lol. Check this out:

Bee was number 9 on this week's R&B album chart as Bday reentered that chart! Got Greatest gainer recognition on this chart!

And Bee was number 19 on the Hot 200 album chart,having a sales increase of 999%

And number one on the Catalog album chart

and # 2 on the Billboard DVD sales chart!

So to all my friends in the US, get your copy of the Beyonce Experience today! I swear y'all won't regret it...

I think it's time I do what that avatar tells me. [If you hate it, don't worry. I don't like it too. :P plus it's really old.] I dunno. I've been constantly telling people I'm doing great and I guess I have forgotten my problems for awhile. But everybody knows that the more you avoid your problems, they only get bigger and bigger and it's time for me to handle the issues with my dad like a big girl. Time to talk with him. Only question is, am I ready?

2007-12-01T20:36:00.000-08:00

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My freakingly annoying sister couldn't get anymore well annoying. She keeps on pulling my hair and I dunno... She makes me feel like a load of crap. I swear I don't love her. I never did, never will. Bahaha. I hope she gets karma-d soon cuz from what I heard karma is a *toot*... Blehs. I censored for all the little people reading. :P Sunday mornings are of course, boring. Aside from the fact that my hate towards my sister increased, nothings new.

I am still fascinated with Beyonce's BET award performance. Somebody finally uploaded it in YouTube but I wouldn't need it cuz I got that performance in my computer. ;) I tried posting it in this post but if it doesn't work, neigh. But if it does work, then yay! I loved the whole robot-robot thing in the start of the performance. It was totally awesome. I don't have any new graphics right now cuz, like I said, am on hiatus. For all you guys know this is permanent. haha. am not sure tho. ha. What a random post. just saying how much I like the performance. :P

Anyways, I was in a confe with Nhix and Jessi. Could you believe it? Nhix is finally online! I swear I missed this girl so much. Ha. So as you can tell, am happy as can be. :P and plus, I finally got a chance to get a confe with all of my Roc Ridahs. eek...

Kayla: mama t, you head about cilly's problems?
TyTy: yeah. girl's got issues forreal. just messing with you, bella. :P
Me: haha. you think im the one's that's messed up... check out kaije over there. she's in looooove. ;)
Kaije: ive been in luv since i met my boo. HATER!
Kayla: nobody gon' be jealous of that skinny dude.
Me: co/sign. *kink*
Lexes: hey yall. sorry for not talking.
Sasha: me 2.
Kayla: why yall so busy?
TyTy: they prolly 2 busy taking care of them devil children.
Lexes: it aint my fault sats when the fam
Sasha: dont you mean sunday? lmao
Kaije: haha. is that how awful them kids are?? you so stupid now =))
Lexes: oh shut up, kaije.
Kayla: haha. you cant think of a nice comeback. :P
TyTy: kaije got lexes good...
Lexes: yeah, she did now, where's cilly?
Me: reading ALJ.. DONT DISTURB.!
Lexes: you aint the only one. :P
Kaije: yall wont like the update...
Lexes: dont you dare spoil it!! anyways, im bored. bella??
Kayla: i know whatll make her appear.
TyTy: and that is...
Kayla: we got sum new Jayonce vacay. pics!!
Bella: SHARE NOWWWWW!
Kayla: told yall... :P
Kaije: lmao...

So there. This is basically what my Sunday was composed of. Not much, eh? :P

2007-12-01T01:02:00.000-08:00

Don't you just think that this new banner of Bee at the AMAs is just well... wrong. By the way, I made this a really long time ago [like last night] it was just lost in my photobucket. and it could have stayed that way cuz let's be honest. It sucks on so many levels. For starters, blending could have been done a little better, plus I hate the colors I chose. :| And I think Bee is too drop-dead gorgeous to be featured in a graphic made my me... oh well. Try and try right? I feel like I'll never get any better though. In fact, I think I'll go on a hiatus. A PERMANENT one. Jeez. I mean, I don't wanna feel bad cuz I'm not good at another thing... again. and I totally don't believe it's true when people say "hey you have nice graphics." I feel like they kinda have to say it since they are my friends... Me&Graphics: hiatus.

It's official. I am the worst person who ever walked this planet. Well, I told this girl how I really felt about her. [How I get annoyed with her and stuff like that] I know I shouldn't feel bad or anything but it's really her fault. I mean, I know I speak for a lot of other people in the board but I really think I hurt her and people tell me she deserve it, but I can't help but feel guilty. Ugh. I have a huge problem and I don't know what I can do about it. Any suggestions? I know one, say sorry right??? Uggggh. This thing is gonna make my mind pop. A part of me is saying she deserves it but a part of me is saying shes young and naive. I mean yeah, I think she deserves it cuz she needs to be told that she is copying me but it's babaw din kasi she only copied two words, right? Am torn and don't know what to do...

Sighs. I don't know what to do right now. and I am doing nothing right? Just chatting with my friends on AIM and YIM... here's the advice they gave me:

me: kayla!!! I miss you so mch. yu ix stuff with Kaije already?
kayla: heyyy girl. i miss u 2. and yea. me and kaije are good.
pretty.uglyy: thats good to hear. :) ug. i feel so sad...
kayla: y? is it cause of that lil copycat chick again??
me: yea. i finally told her off but i feel guilty..
kayla: dont be. its ehr fault. jus chill k?

me: lexes...
Alexes: no huggy smiley and no kissey face? girl, what is wrong?
me: I'm an awful person....
Alexes: kayla already told me wassup and i agree... dont pay her any attention.

I got some more from my TG friends but I'd want to keep that to myself to avoid anymore conflicts on that board. So, I guess this is it. Post is posted and Bella is well.. Still confused. I need more time. Maybe I will say sorry, maybe I won't....

2007-11-30T22:15:00.001-08:00

haha. I finally got rid mf my blogger phobia. so here's my first post. :P enjoy?